here i am, before you all..
Posted by inoj at 05:39 PM on October 19, 2004.
hello there. i got a new blogsite. the layout's not so neat, pero, sige, it'll work. i spent the whole day in front of the PC, stopping only to take a bath or text. A friend once told me that she'd rather go out and look for something fun to do that sit for long hours in front of the computer. But i say otherwise. sometimes, it's more comforting to just
stop, sit, and mouse around. i know most of you bloggers out there can relate to what i said.
so, why blog?
(1) there are times that i'd rather not use my mouth.
(2) words written last, while words said are soon forgotten.
(3) it's good to hear (err, i mean, read) what others think on what i think
(4) you can edit your thoughts. unlike speaking, when it's almost impossible to take back what you said.
(5) just for the sheer joy of it!
kaya, mag-blog na! 
life stage comparison
Posted by inoj at 07:02 PM on October 19, 2004.
In spending time with my 5-year-old cousin for the past weeks, i've come to realize a lot of things about
my childhood. How my worries then are miles and miles less than my worries now.
Let's back track a bit.
Kindegarten Thoughts
My worries only revolved around playtime. Will i get picked to join a game? will my seatmate ignore me when i talk to her? how do i color my coloring book without going over the lines? (i had clumsy hands) is my noodle snack still hot? (my mom always packed me noodles for snack time) is my lunchbox as cool as my classmates'? did i bring the right picture for our assignment? Am i part of the class presentation for the Foundation Day? (for some reason, i was)
Early Elementary Thoughts
Will my teacher overlook my errors? Am i wearing the right hairdo? (
uso one-length nun) will the girls back out of the war against the boys? when will the bell ring? i want to play
"anders-kingdam"! it was in elementary when the only sports i knew how to play were jackstones/chinese jackstones, chinese garter, 10-20, In-Out, and Tinikling. i was proud and happy to discover i was actually good at 'em!
Late Elementary Thoughts
Am i part of the class' Folk Dance presentation? Will our batch win First Place in the Foundation Week? is my skirt faded? too short? are my socks too long? what club should i join? with which group of friends should i go with? am i still maintaining my average grade of 88? (an average grade of that made my parents happy, i dunno why).
High School
I love high school. If i were given the chance to turn back time, i'd go back to high school. it was at that stage when i felt that i was on top of the world, that everything is just going well. when i always thought that elemetary kids are so young, while college folks are too old. i felt i was at the right age. the cool age. my world revolved around Friends, Volleyball, Grades, PMT (or CAT), Crushes, Batchmates, Terror Teachers, Church, or where to go and what to take up in College..
Life, then, was easier, funner and less complicated --- as opposed to life now when everything is mayhem. I always worry about stuff that i don't wanna worry about. i want everything go back to the way they were.. if only i had the ability.
like, right now? i can't stop thinking about how am i bound to face the inevitable. my greatest fear has come. i am about to cruise the most awkward trip of my life.
oh well. Maybe the Lord wants me to go this way
now. im still gonna anyway, in one way or another. Maybe i'm just being stubborn. i want to keep things like i want them to be. But maybe, just maybe, He has better plans.
I guess, still, it all boils down to
His Plans. and for yet another time, there's nothing else to do but to humble myself and submit to the King.
*sigh*
"We give thanks... for we know that all things work together for our good."