amazing grace.
Posted by inoj at 06:59 PM on January 5, 2005.
ever had the feeling when your heart's all heavy and you just know that it is
He who's tugging at its strings and you kind of groan inwardly, exasperated, and blurting out the question:
"Lord, what is it now?"
if only He would just directly whisper into my ear, which clearly provides a definite acoustical advantage. so i won't have to be up all night trying to decode the message He's trying to convey..
or, if only i wasn't too deaf to actually hear it,
or too blind to actually see,
or too dumb to actually crack His code.
if only i wasn't too darn stubborn.
then He doesn't have to do the you-won't-be-able-sleep-unless you-realize-this tugging. then i could sleep.
because after everything, He just wanted to tell me this,
"You know it's gonna be okay.. my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in your weakness."
hay. si Lord.
the year 2004.
Posted by inoj at 05:07 PM on January 7, 2005.
1. What did you do in 2004 that you’d never done before?
to actually work.
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i honestly don't remember any of my resolutions. but sure, i'll make more.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yes. my tita gave birth to the most adorable baby in the world.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
my lola died last march a few days before my graduation.
5. What countries did you visit?
it's not like i have the luxury, you know.
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
stronger faith in God. and wisdom.
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 12, 2004. i'd rather not say why.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
by the grace of God, i graduated.
9. What was your biggest failure?
ah, too many to mention.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
mental illness? haha. none.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
hmm, this cutie little bag.. and i guess the novels i bought.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
our cell group.
13. Whose behaviour appalled you and made you depressed?
let's not name names.
14. Where did most of your money go?
books, food, fare, clothes, bags, e-load.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
going home to Bacolod.
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
the art of letting go.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder? sadder
and happier in different aspects.
ii. Thinner or fatter? thinner
iii. Richer or poorer? poorer
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
learning.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
slacking. sleeping. spending. gallivanting.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
i spent Christmas with my family at my tito's house. and just watched dvds at home.
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
hmm, i think i did..
23. How many one-night stands?
haha, riiight. none.
24. What was your favourite TV program?
friends and smallville. (*ehem* and SCQ, it might be you, hiram.^_^)
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
hate is such a strong word.. but, yes.
26. What was the best book(s) you read?
Angels and Demons and the Da Vinci Code.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
mymp
28. What did you want and get?
visited other places in luzon.
29. What did you want and not get?
a new celfone.
30. Favorite film(s) of last year?
aishite imasu (yey!). return of the king. troy. wicker park.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i celebrated with my family and gurlfrends at home. i turned 20 then.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
a consistent prayer life.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
my fashion sense was pretty much the same..
though, i wasn't that crazy about sneakers as i was the year before.
34. What kept you sane?
HIS amazing love.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i don't know.. si Tom Welling na lng.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the very dramatic pre-election and election.
37. Who did you miss?
my parents and my brothers.. and my barkada.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
friends i met at the call center i worked for.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
i am not supposed to get comfortable here on earth, because this is not my home.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
[from just like you]
you stand beside me just waiting while i try to go on alone
smilingly saying, "Son, come here, won't you let me just help you?"
frustrated i tried to make it, coz i've just got something to prove
not knowing it is my weakness that perfects Your power
coz i desire to be like You
like any son or daughter i want to be like my Father
oh i desire to be like You
you promised to never forsake me
so i'd risk it all if you make me like You.
Father, make me just like You
i passed.
Posted by inoj at 08:26 PM on January 13, 2005.
One of the things that i have been long anticipating and dreading has finally happened. But now that it did, i realize i have actually made a big deal out of it before when in fact it really isn't. I thought i was gonna be all disturbed and be blown off my mind. I was. The feeling was oddly unsettling. But only for a few minutes. Then, i realized i
am okay. I did it. No harm done. I have passed the test.
So, last night when i was in bed, i just turned to Him and said,
"Lord, You really have been working in me. I'm sorry that i neglected your power and Your ability to change me.. Thank You for not overlooking my weaknesses.."
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If you have no idea of what i'm blabbing about here, don't worry, that's supposed to happen.
random.
Posted by inoj at 03:33 PM on January 22, 2005.
Lovers in paris.
Yes, as much as I hate to admit it, I've become one of the millions of
avid viewers of the said Korean soap. And even one of the millions of admirers of the character they put under the name
Martin, who's just so cute especially now that he's
mustache-less. And also, one of those who, if given the chance, wants to knock some sense into
Vivian so she'd realize how
Martin is so much better than
Carlo. And even one who's bummed to know that the tv program's gonna end in one week.
But it's just some stupid soap. I do know that. hehe
Back to square one.
i'm back to square one in this whole job-hunting thing. pray with me.. i am serious this time.
The Da Vinci Code movie
i read this from
his blogsite. Apparently, they're gonna start filming in May 2005 with Tom Hanks playing Robert Langdon's character. A storyline adapted from Dan Brown's best-selling novel, The Da Vinci Code (see
more). yey. Something to look forward to.
Song for the year: "STILL"
Hide me now under your wings. Cover me within you mighty hands. When the oceans rise and thunders roar, I will soar with You above the storm. Father, You are king over the flood. I will be still and know You are God. Find rest, my soul, in Christ alone. Know His power, in quietness and trust. When the oceans rise and thunders roar, I will soar with You above the storm. Father, You are king over the flood. I will be still and know You are God.
a proud 'ate'
Posted by inoj at 03:30 PM on January 27, 2005.
I spent the last 3 days helping out with my 5-yr-old cousin's preparation for a kiddie pageant at her pre-school as she was the appointed representative for class muse. We took care designing her 3-wheeler 'float' for their parade (which turned out quite fine for something planned and done spontaneously). We rented her purple gown, bought her a new pair of shoes and practiced her routine for the talents' showcase again and again (and again!).
Yesterday was the big day. There we were.. me, my mom, my tita, our cutie little princess and her very
makulit but adorable escort. I was my lil cousin's stage-
ate slash photographer slash 'float' designer slash fashion-hair-makeup consultant slash semi-choreographer slash chauffeur and her very own groupie! We were all pretty excited in spite feeling worn out from all the costume change and the moving around. But to top it all off, she was able to entice the judges in her own charming innocent way, thus had bagged the
tiara for herself, much to our suprise and delight. I was her proud ate who pinned her sash. But my joyous reaction was nothing compared to her teary-eyed mom. Such a sweet sight of such a sweet victoryl
Though, i'm afraid i'm gonna have to find a way to combat the
mamma eu quero da a chupeta jingle that's still irritatingly reverberating in my head..
It was a nice time of fixing and dressing up. Reminds me so much of the time my brother and I were unyieldingly coerced to represent our dad's uncle's company's float at the Masskara festival when i was probably 7 or 8. It took me a while to live that embarrassment down as i was picked on by my classmates for quite some time. Ironic how I wouldn't even smile or wave at the Bacolod crowd then when yesterday I would constantly call out to my lil cousin to "smile!" and "wave!" at her spectators.
la lang. share lang.
sweet sixteen.
Posted by inoj at 05:51 PM on January 31, 2005.
To all who greeted me on my birthday, thank you! I know it's gonna be a tough 16th year for me.. but i'll try to hang on.
ay, hehe. not Sixteen. Twenty-one!
waah.
I spent my 21st (ugh) birthday with 3 of my college classmates. I was hoping i could also eat dinner with some old friends but who, sadly, had other plans. It was nothing special really.. i guess when you're getting older, birthdays bring you less excitement when you're not expecting a children's party or huge presents (tangible or monetary.
haha.) from titos, titas, ninongs & ninangs. And, I realized a week ago, that birthdays only mean you're one year
older... no point celebrating that, is there? heehee.
wah. I missed my barkada back at home.. who, I'm sure, wouldn't have let January 29th pass
un-celebrated. It would have been another reason for all of us to gather, sit and talk over a cup of coffee.. oh well.
However, i did have the best pre-birthday celebration.. I was with 3 of the most beautiful girls on this earth! read more about that afternoon
here.
Hannah, Tarits, Riz, me
To Tarits and Riz: I enjoyed every minute of our bonding time! I understand you need two weeks off to focus on your theses.. I believe you're both true to your words... But, last Friday, i also believed it when Riz said she had to go to class at 4:00 and Tarits had to attend their BigF at 4:00! bwahaha. hope to see you again soon!