So...

Posted by inoj at 08:00 PM on October 3, 2005.

So yesterday was the effective date of my resignation there, and last Saturday was technically my last day. But that day was like every other day. Nothing special. And as if no one's leaving. Not even a goodbye from more than 5 persons.

Oh well. What did I expect? Since for most of them, I haven't actually been a good girl. So, who cares anyway?

 

  

 

So my mom texts to tell me, "I miss you, nang (fyi, nang is some kind of a term of endearment in Kapampangan -- I think.). Your Papa feels the same way. Don't you think you should consider working here na lang?"

Me: "Don't worry, Ma, when I reach my tolerance limit, there's nowhere else for me to go but home."

Mama: "Ok, take care of yourself. Your brother says that you're losing weight, you should eat right."

Me: "Ok. Don't worry too much. I love you! I miss you! Gudnyt!"

And then that same night I spent hours and hours alone at our apartment. With nothing to do and no one to talk to. And then I start to think, "Is this all worth it?"

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weird.

Posted by inoj at 10:08 PM on October 5, 2005.

Whatta weird quiz! The questions are all so irrelevant.. and weird. And most of the weird answers I made were just so I have something to answer to get this weird quiz over with.

And then when I clicked on the submit button, this was the result..
(Which Filipino Food Am I...kuno?)

Hahaha! These quizilla quizzes are so weird!






PS: Have I said the word weird enough yet?? Hehehe! I'm so weird!

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wet & wild.

Posted by inoj at 04:25 PM on October 11, 2005.

Last night should have been a good night. I was my wearing sneakers and was all set for it. I wanted to walk all the way from our office building to Shaw Blvd-Edsa by myself. You know.. walk in the cold night.. maybe sing a song.. talk to Him.. assess life.. feel sad, happy.. those kinda stuff (hehe. I'm so boring, aren't I?).

So I set off. Walked. Smiled at (kind-looking) strangers. Drank from my water bottle. And softly sang a song.

I haven't been walking halfway yet when it started to rain. And considering how it is nowadays, it won't be long until the rain gets a little hard. Then harder.

True enough, a few seconds later the entire dark sky fell down on me. I had to walk my fastest. (I didn't wanna run as I'm still recovering from an embarrassing experience of slipping in front of many people). The nearest roofed establishment was not at all near! My shoes and my white t-shirt (yes, it was white) are semi-drenched. And it happened that night, of all nights, when I decided not to bring a sweater!

Waaaah.

So, I went home wet and shivering.

Sigh. So much for a nice night for walking.


Oh well. My disappointment was compensated for immediately after as I sat comfortably and ate in front of the TV at home while talking with someone on the phone. Then later read myself to sleep with a good book.

There's always a next time. Hehe.Ü

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sisterhood of the traveling pants.

Posted by inoj at 04:03 PM on October 17, 2005.

No, this is not about the movie. This is about the novel. I didn't expect to like it at all, but i looooved it so much! Last year, when I saw her reading it, I was kinda feeling indifferent towards the book. And even more apathetic when it's movie premiered this year. But recently, a friend lent me her copy and I read it last weekend. I honestly didn't know it would be better than I expected coz I thought it was just some cheesy teeny novel, a Now-&-Then-friendship-adventure kinda plot (though, the Now & Then 90's film is also one of my favorites! hehe). I was surprised to see myself not able to put the book down (well, i did, a few times. for bathroom/food/TV/text break). And was even more surprised when a few parts in the book's plot actually made me cry. (Ugh, I hate it when i get overly sensitive.)

I was supposed to watch the movie in DVD with my friends, but I saved it after I've read the book. It's always better that way. Paperback first, before the actual film. You get a lot critical that way and you get to say things like, Hey! That doesn't how it goes in the book! Heh, mind you, I do that a lot. It irritates some of my friends. haha.

Examples of movies-based-on-novels:

A Walk to Remember - so inaccurate.

The Notebook - slightly inaccurate

The Bridget Jones Diary - almost accurate

Haha! Pardon me.. the bookish side of me is babbling profusely and just had to do a book (and, uh, movie) review. Hehe. So pathetic.Ü

So how about you guys? what good novel have you read lately? I'd so appreciate book (and, uh, movie) recommendations. Uh-oh, I can see her making a list already! (haha, joke lng, mels!)


regarding my previous entry.. Hey, april, normi, anna and riz! thanks for the sympathy!Ü

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hmm.. whatchu think?

Posted by inoj at 09:24 PM on October 20, 2005.

12 Better Explanations of LOVE

1) Don't turn your back to love when it's already in front of you. Don't drive it away from you, because if you do, someday, you'll think again, why you let love flew when it was there next to you.

2) In Love, think things first over if you're sure about how you feel. Don't fall too hard not knowing where you will stand, 'coz it will hurt real bad if things don't go the way you want them to be.

(Read More)


*copied this from a forwarded e-mail. let me know what you think.

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an old nostalgic quotable quote.

Posted by inoj at 10:06 PM on October 26, 2005.

"When you have nothing left but God, then for the first time you become aware that God is enough." — Maude Royden

At that time I came across this quotation, the first thing I said was, "Hey, this is familiar. Where have I read this before?" It took me 2 days to finally recall where. Strange thing is, I didn't deliberately try to think about it... I just, out of nowhere, suddenly remembered.

I was very young when I first encountered this quotation. I was probably 6 or 7. My mom usually left her books and her Bible inside our bathroom, and because I was just learning how to read then, I usually read through her books to practice -- though I barely understood the words from those books for grownups. But this one very special quote my mom has chosen to cut out from an article, newsletter or something and stuck it with Scotch tape on our bathroom door. I figured then that it was for my dad to read whenever he's inside since it was positioned at an adult's eye-level. My mom was always finding ways to knock some sense into my dad. She's very sentimental and dramatic like that. (I think I got that from her. Hehe). 

That ink-stained and graying piece of paper was stuck there for years (until we left our old house and transferred), and every day for several years I read it and have memorized it by heart. I also remember thinking then (when I was 6 or 7) that it felt cool and very adult-like to have memorized a complete English sentence, and a sensible and spiritual one at that (haha. pathetic, isn't it?).

And now, after more than 10 years, this old saying had find its way to me again. Not only has it brought a forgotten childhood memory, it has also arrived in a very timely manner to comfort me just as my mom wanted my dad to be comforted then. I worry too much about so many things, and have been constantly scared of not being able to please other people, that somehow it has become a semi-driving force to me.

Now I realize I really have no one. Well, i have my family and friends. But no one that I can truly call my own, because these people will not stay with me forever.

But I have God. And that is enough. I know He will never ever leave me...

 

 

 

 

See? I'm very dramatic. Haha.Ü

PS: hi, Anna! I share your joy with you. hehe!

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