Anything goes.

Posted by inoj at 02:16 PM on December 12, 2005 in daily rants.

+ I want to blog. Since Riz and Rom are absent today, I am here stuck on my chair, staying still. I hadn't realized how quiet my day at the office would be without the two around. And so, I blog.

+ I am feeling pain from the lower-left part of my stomach. As to the cause, I am too med-ignorant to know. Might be because of the way I held my pee for several hours yesterday. Med friends, alert!

+ Last Friday, I spent the evening with Riz, Nono and Deej at Megamall. We ate at KFC and watched Just Like Heaven. Yes, it was undoubtedly a chick flick. The guys said they liked it.. or at least, "pretended" to like it maybe. Hehe.

+ Thank God for Nono's testimony, coz Riz and I have realized how small our problems are, and that there are bigger things to pray about. I was so ashamed.

+ Melissa, who's all the way in Shanghai, and I have been taking different sorts of online quizzes lately, then discussing about the results in Yahoo! IM. I can't figure it out yet.. are we really curious of the quizzes or are we just plain bored?

+ I spent my Saturday with Riz at Divisoria. Thinking we only needed a few bucks in our wallets, we stormed through Divi's christmas shopping rush unarmed. It means we were not wearing the right clothes at all! The place was so crowded, that we got our pants and feet mucked up before we could even say, "Excuse me." Haha! EDSA Kwatro na ba??We walked back and forth for 5 hours and made it out of there by 7pm, barely breathing. Whew. Hehe. But all in all? It was a fun experience! We should definitely do that again. And in a regular basis, I must add. All interested parties are welcome to join! Trust me, it's fun watching and joining her revolutionize her wardrobe collection! Hahaha! ( @ Riz)

+ Pinoy Big Brother has finally come to an end. I've been watching it for the past 3 months now. I wasn't able to when it first began due to our work sked (2-10pm), the insufficiency of the medium itself: tv, and my indifference towards it. I used to say that PBB is full of crap, and I'd be a fool to watch since it's probably just running with script. But then, guess what? I got hooked too. My bet was Jason, but thinks too that Nene deserved the recognition as the first PBB big winner. Too bad for Jason though. It would have been more dramatic if he had exited the PBB replica house last.

+ I've been wearing skirts lately. I don't normally do. But thanks to strong influences both here at the office and at our apartment, I'm starting to look like a girl, or a human, at least. Haha. But this is only for certain occasions, when I'm coerced by a certain kikay. Hehe. Being the gullible person that I am, for most of the time, I just agree. But I still love the comfort in jeans more.

+ Tsaka.. Hoy rhiza, napansin mo? Ilang beses na kitang nabanggit dito? Do you think we need some time apart na? Haha! Parang mag-jowa ah! Joke lng yun! Walang time-apart-time-apart!

+ Sigh. My conscience is killing me bit by bit. I'm not sure what to do about it.

+ Yey! King Kong's gonna show this Wednesday! Erhm, I don't actually fancy the movie, but I'm excited to watch it with friends who do!

+ I have one of the most special gifts coming for my birthday next month. I've been expecting it for weeks now. And the catch is, I have no idea when it will arrive since it'll be coming from overseas and my "gift-giver" is deliberately killing me with suspense! Waah. Usually, I want time to slow down, but in this case, it can't get any slower! A test of patience indeed.

+ So, okay. I gotta get back to work. 3 more hours til i'm outta this place! Take care y'all.



Thankies: hobbes, yahn, anna, april, normi, marian, ying

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Not some, but ALL.

Posted by inoj at 12:35 PM on December 8, 2005.

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:28 (KJV)

The above verse is one of my favorites, if not my most favorite. It's always comforting for me to say this to myself over and over again especially in times when I am down.

These words suddenly popped in my head this morning, when she and I were on our way to work. I've thought of it, along with thoughts on being late to work again, and the movie "Sliding Doors" (Haha, weird isn't it?). And it made me think again: Is everything, every single thing, that's happening in my life for my good? Even the hurts and problems? Do they count? Is the most inconceivable thing that could possibly take place in my life included in the list? Or even the simplest things, like, not making it to the first MRT trip or an earlier FX ride, or being cut in by someone in line so he gets to go first before me. Are those petty things significant?

I remember our pastor back home when he would consistently emphasize on the word "ALL" in his sermons. For instance, the verse Romans 8:28, he would open his Bible and read it as: "And we know that some things work together for good...", and then he would pause and face the congregation with a questioning look on his face. "Some? No. ALL. All things work for our good." And then I would see some (if not all?) of the people nod their heads in agreement. Hehe. That was one of his trademarks.

So how does a short word such as "all" mean so much? When God says "all", he means ALL.

• All things work for the good of those who love God.


• For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God (Rom 3:23)


• Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine... (Eph 3:20)

Sometimes it's really hard to understand the truth in His Word. Especially when you're hurting or facing a seemingly impossible problem. You want to look ahead and see the truth but clouds of doubt get in the way.

This is particularly true for me. So many's uncertain in my life right now. You could say that, I'm walking through dark tunnels, playing with fire, and the likes. It's hard this way coz I don't know what's gonna happen next, and the worry and anxiety sort of eats me up. There are times that I doubt His power, but I never doubt His love. And I know, deep inside, that ALL the things He allows to happen in my life, good or bad, small or big, is for my good. And then upon realizing that truth, I am made strong through His power and love.

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Happy Birthday, AnnaGrace.

Posted by inoj at 04:52 PM on December 6, 2005.

For December 7, 2005...

Happy 21st Birthday
Anna Grace!!!

Anna Grace is part of my barkada back home. We call ourselves the CD-CG-SC. As to what it stands for, you must not ask. Else, you'd think of us as some cocky group of girls. Hehe. Visit her weblog here.

Wala lng!  

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too good to be true.

Posted by inoj at 04:30 PM on December 2, 2005.

Just as I thought.. With my very delightful entry yesterday on how I came to office on time comes a downside --- much to my despair. Today, I was not only late. I woke up so late, that I had to miss the first half of the day. In other words, halfday lng ako!! wahaha. bad. (hides in shame from Rom and Riz). I knew it was too good to be true.

It's entirely my fault really (and who else would it be?). I couldn't resist joining some friends to a late roadtrip to Tagaytay last night. It's not everyday that I get invited to join a road trip you know. And for a "gala" like me, it's really, really hard to say "no" especially to a trip out of town! We drove there to hang out and order frapuccinos at Starbucks. Splendid, isn't it? Sipping fraps in Tagaytay air! And because I have very low tolerance to cold.. I shivered uncontrollably even under my jacket (less my insensitivity to those who hadn't brought their sweaters). It was a nice time of talking and laughing with them. ...and sleeping going to and coming from Tagaytay.

So it's the end of the week. And I've been very pasaway. I could always look at next week as a new start for me to come to work on time. I could. But I just might get disappointed again. Hehe. Hay. I wish I could develop some kind of discipline soon. When am I ever gonna grow up?

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definitely blogworthy.

Posted by inoj at 04:14 PM on December 1, 2005.

Today, for the first time in the history of mankind (hehe, exag lang! actually, for the second time in 3 weeks), I wasn't late for work! I arrived at exactly 6:50am! Woohoo! Congratulate me guys!

So that's about it.. that's the one great thing that has happened to me today. And oh yeah, I changed my layout (nainggit ky Riz eh, wahaha!).

MERRY CHRISTMAS, friends!

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a frustrated person.

Posted by inoj at 03:11 PM on November 24, 2005.

If you've read the description I wrote about myself that I have placed at the right menu side of this weblog, you'll see that I described myself as a frustrated singer, frustrated artist, frustrated everything. This is true, considering that I've never been best at a specific thing. I'm only a moderate kind of person, somewhat like what they call the jack-of-all-trades. It has always been this group of things that I do (and try to do) but I've never been actually superior at doing them. Not even one of them.

If only I could actually be great at just one thing, then I'll feel that I'm actually be useful to myself and to other people. Hehe.

And right now, once again, this is what I feel. Argh. There's just so much I want to learn. I browse through the web and see what amazing talents and skills some people are blessed with and I envy them so much. I realize that my senior year in college was a big waste of time too. I think that, maybe if I hadn't spent so much of my time on some crappy things (that should be left unmentioned), I would've learned much by now, especially on the field I chose to be in.

There's just so much I want to learn. And so little time. I know I'm not that old yet, but I can't help but feel frustrated right now and feel the I've just wasted my time unlearning things. I have to get back on the learning track. I owe it to myself.

Waah.

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TVH ako!

Posted by inoj at 09:49 AM on November 16, 2005.

Reading Riz's latest blog entry has made me want to write about my own version of my realizations too. Let me exert a poor attempt to pull my thoughts together.

The changes I was facing have been hard for me. Too hard, that I couldn't hide my frustration. Too frustrated, that I had to speak out my mind. And too loud the words, that it makes me wish I had just kept my mouth shut (in this case, restrained my fingers from tapping the keyboard's keys). But I know that if I did not speak my mind, the words will just linger in my head and torture my mind. An anti-social graveyard shift and a nasty transition can do that to your head, you know. But lo and behold, I have survived! I knew I would survive, but there is just some things that's hard for me to accept. Sheesh. So childish.

One thing I hate about myself is that sometimes when my emotions are high and I suspect that I can't contain it, I feel the urge to let another party hear and bear every blunt thing I have to say. Then, afterwards, I feel terrible having said it so frankly and openly.

But, this is just for rare cases, because for most of the time, I do just stay quiet when I'm mad or disappointed. And for some reason, I think suppressing the emotion is even worse. Coz it kills you inside.

So what did my whole speaking-my-mind drama got me? Nothing. But it feels good to just let it out. That was really just my intention. Because I knew, and I know, that I really can't do anything about it, but just to opt to teach myself to cope with whatever changes I have to inevitably deal with. Coz in the end, it still all boils down to realizing the things I need to learn. Heehee.

So while I was just in the process of realizing these things (and while I was still transitioning back to being a morning person), she and I (and later, together with her) met up and once again tried to pull an act of sorting out "the facts of life" together. And after our long talks and walks that night, I went home, contaminated with Riz's resolution of starting anew. That being, coming to work on time (and actually coming to work) and learning to compromise with whatever needs to be done even if it's against better judgment. So with a day's absence from work and a long series of tardies, I slept (no, forced myself to sleep) with the optimism to start anew too... What a nice feeling it was.

Suddenly my alarm goes off. With just 4 hours of sleep, my mind and body fights back. And there goes my one-hundred-million-billion alarm snoozes!

So once again, I was late for work. Then was late again.

I really am trying. Trying Very Hard! But this morning thing is just too foreign and seemingly impossible for a nocturnal like me.

Waah. Help.

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a lonely graveyard shift.

Posted by inoj at 05:40 AM on November 9, 2005.

For this week, I'm scheduled to work in graveyard shift (9pm-6am). While that sked is not really a problem (my former job required an almost similar sked), I get lonesome without my office buddies. waah. It's only Wednesday... i have 3 more days to go.


    


Last weekend, my ex-officemates and I went to a friend's birthday. Well, it was hardly a party, since there were just 3 of us as her guests. Her mom adopted us for the night. So even though there were just 3 of us against a whole bunch of food, we managed to finish it all off with a series of eat-sleep-watch tv routine. hehe.

We watched the horror movie, "Shutter" first, and man oh man, was it freaky! I never really shriek that loud at horror movies, but that time, I felt that I was gonna have a heart attack. (Heehee. Exag!) Two thumbs up. Great for horror film fanatics. Bad for those prone to heart failure.

Afterwards, we watched "My Sassy Girl". Finally, I was able to watch it from start to end. I wasn't able to the first time I did. Damn pirated DVDs.

The next morning (er, i think that was lunchtime already), I woke up and asked our hostess-slash-birthdaygirl if she has novels I could borrow. She and I rummaged through her bookshelf. I found none that I like.. but this one book got me attracted the moment I laid my eyes on it.. it's no other than the international best-seller "The Little Prince". I immediately curled up in her bed and started reading. I loved that book! I remember I played the role of the Lamp Lighter back in school when we were required to act the story out (i'm such a bad actor, i tell ya). The Little Prince, though I really didn't read it as a child, is my favorite children's book. It's simple yet it touches deeply. Leaves you with that oddly unsettling feeling... And it's most famous lesson is still the one of the best: What is essential is invisible to the eyes.


    


So there. Kuwento lang! I gotta get back to work. I still have a few minutes left 'til my off. Pardon me, peepz, I'm just a little lonely. And as always, I undergo therapy when i blog. haha. I feel a little better now.

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pa-cute pics!

Posted by inoj at 06:24 PM on November 4, 2005.

It's November 4. It's supposed to be a non-working holiday, but here I am at the office, together with her, working. Argh. Pero okay lang!.. to give ourselves a break, we took a few clicks here and there!Ü


Ramadan officegurls

(See more pics.Ü)

    


Btw, thank you to the lovely ladies who gave touching comments to my previous melodramatic entry. -- anna, normi, riz, ying, aiai, rom, april.


So this is it for now.. Happy weekend everyone!

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